Anonymous said: Would you make a contract with Kyubey qnd become a magical girl? :3
I think it was around the age of 10 when I realized that the aliens weren’t coming to take me on an intergalactic adventure. In fairness, I guess it was a crazy pipe dream. Yet at the same time, I just wanted a reason to be better than the rest of the world. I didn’t want to be a person if it meant being like everyone I interacted with. Hurtful. All of them.
A year later, and I began to question the very foundations I had built upon since birth. How could God create the rainbow if they are made through the reflection of water droplets formed by rain? Could God have just molded the laws of physics to make that happen? I didn’t know. But for some reason the world was trying to make me fit into a certain mold that I had no intentions of sliding into. Thus, I was an outcast.
I feel as though life would be a lot more interesting if, at age 18, they gave people the choice to continue living, or to exist as something else and observe from the sidelines. How many people would agree to become a tree? The pressure to become someone of importance has made the very journey getting there into something painful. Should people really feel scared of waking up every morning to a new day? The one thing we are always guaranteed is tomorrow. Until you die. That’s when you’re finally free from the cycle. We are guaranteed a tomorrow, but we have become so fearful of what that promise will bring that many people just… give up.
I want to give up. Honestly I do. I don’t think I want to die per se, but I want to be somewhere else. Far away from the ilk that has formed over years of forced expectations and unnecessarily absurd goals. That’s why I want there to be a space station built somewhere in earth’s orbit. So the people who do not want to be associated with the rest of the world can exist in peace.
Yet at the same time, I cannot bring myself to think that that would be a good idea. For me to be ultimately happy, I would need to make life more difficult for everyone I know and love. And I just can’t do that. For that reason I continue to smile. I want the people I care about to be happy. They deserve the promise of a new tomorrow, even if it means that I have to fear today.
I like mint-chocolate ice cream though!